I have 5 minutes before my students arrive for CPR classes, so I just want you all to know how much your thoughts, prayers , and concern really means to me. You could be concerned only with your own situation, but you've really reached out. I think our loss and pain has given us greater empathy for others hurting as well.
D11 had a good day today. She apologized several times, said she loved me and hugged and kissed me. I really find it so easy to forgive - I do love her so much.
I am having a tough evening however. Tonight is 16th wedding anniversary, but instead of being with H, Im here at work sucking it up. H did come over after work to pick up kids. Played some volleyball with us, then helped D14 with brakes on dirtbike. Hardly pays attention to me, does not initiate conversation. Overheard S11 asking H if Jacob will be at house tonight (OW's son) and H replied "yes". So he will be spending our anniversary with OW. I cried silently, got myself together, and politely asked for some help with a light fixture and asked about a work meeting he had yesterday. Apparently the company is facing a possible shutdown. He must be at a breaking point by now. He doesnt need that, I dont care what he's done to me or the kids.
