I wish I could give you a hug right now. You are not a failure, you did not cause your H's MLC. Remember this is his issue, you are just heavily affected by it.
MLC can lower our self-esteem tremendously. It affects how we look at other things.
We all make mistakes in our jobs. Learn from your mistake, fix it and then let it go.
It helps nothing to beat yourself up.
Seeing vacation pictures is devastating. It breaks the heart. I remember seeing my ex's vacation pictures when they went to Jamaica. Most of the pictures he took of other woman involved her backside. Pathetic.... My kids asked me why dad only took pictures of OW's butt. Remember they are not themselves, they are lost and spiritually empty.
Start looking at this time in your life as a battle to be fought. Get mad, get angry and get even. Get even by turning into someone YOU love. Someone YOU respect. Someone YOU would want to date. Focus on the person that matters here, YOU.
You sound like such a wonderful, caring person. God has a purpose for everyone. It is so hard to see it in between all the crap of someone's MLC. The devil is working on you girl. Don't let him win.
Keep posting, and we will keep listening.
You are not alone in this
Me: 46 H:44 Together: 25 years Married: 20 years Separated: 11-30-06 Divorced 12-21-07 OW: EA began 2005 PA began end of 2006 3 children,20, 16, 6 ex asked for forgiveness 01/16/11
