Hi na and peace- So much for my H wanting me to meet up with him this weekend. My H is having problems at work and decided that he is going to be coming home early Sunday to do more work so there really is no reason for me to go all that way just to meet up with him for dinner and spend the night. So, once again he retracted his invitation and on top of that, the happiness that I thought I saw in him the other day is now gone. He is stressed out again about work and claims that things will be crazy busy for him for the next 3 1/2 months. I did talk to my H about my feelings last night but I feel like that just puts more pressure on him. I told him that if we were living together and he was busy with work, at least I would see him every night when he gets home. He seemed to understand my frustration and acknowledges that his business is a problem but I don't think he is willing to change anything. I told him that he should just let me go since I am so tired of putting my life on hold for him. He just said that he would hate for all of the therapy to go to waste.
So, we have nothing resolved. I just don't think I can stay in limbo until February...or even longer because I don't know what excuse he will have then. I really think my H likes the way things are with us now. He sees me when he wants but has no real obligation...that way he doesn't really have to consider my wants and needs. I feel like I am backed into a corner again. I can't put more pressure on my H but I can't keep going on like this indefinately. I want someone who wants to make me priority and wants to be committed to me...I want someone who wants to be with me...I just know I want more than this. Life is too short to live in limbo forever.
My H is having problems at work and decided that he is going to be coming home early Sunday to do more work so there really is no reason for me to go all that way just to meet up with him for dinner and spend the night. So, once again he retracted his invitation and on top of that, the happiness that I thought I saw in him the other day is now gone. He is stressed out again about work and claims that things will be crazy busy for him for the next 3 1/2 months. I did talk to my H about my feelings last night but I feel like that just puts more pressure on him. I told him that if we were living together and he was busy with work, at least I would see him every night when he gets home. He seemed to understand my frustration and acknowledges that his business is a problem but I don't think he is willing to change anything. I told him that he should just let me go since I am so tired of putting my life on hold for him. He just said that he would hate for all of the therapy to go to waste. 
