Thank you so so much. Amazing the support and love I feel from people I have never met, yet people that are so close to my heart.
It feels really good to be home with the girls tonight. I thought I would want all this time alone today. Nope. Wanted the babies with me. We went to the mall for dinner and shopping. Arrived needing winter clothes for D6, and left with 2 outfits for their Build A Bears. Oops. But it was really fun. Just what the doctor ordered.
I am a bit shredded as reality is sinking in slowly. H didn't come by tonight per my request.
This just hurts. Raw pain. I have had to honestly remember to breathe today. I find myself taking very shallow breaths, and not sitting still enough. But time will heal all of us. I am focusing on not waking up tomorrow with a heavy heart, but to wake up and face the day, knowing the pain will come and go, but also knowing it will be ok.
I will not see him again until Saturday. My friend (who will be D'ed in 3 weeks) is taking me out tomorrow night and we will leave before H comes to see the girls.
