New Here-From Newcomers- hoping for more input...

[optimistwife]

Well, the ring goes on and off at will, but I do take it as a great sign that he is thinking about putting it on before coming to see me. This is recent.

H actually ended up staying 4 nights in a row over the weekend. Physically distant, but did allow some backrubs (for him of course). He was really sweet on Monday night when he had gotten my favorite snacks before monday night football. Bad thing is that his team lost, and put him in terrible mood. Crazy football fans. Kind of ruined any chance at any romance- Not sure if it would have happened, but he would have been in much better state of mind.

My new goal this week is to e-mail him daily. I haven't done this in a long, long time. And with his schedule he hasn't had time to talk on phone. I figured that I would do a daily recap of my day (light and nothing serious), and see what happens. I decided to do this because while I was here this weekend I noted while he was on his e-mail that he has a folder for saved e-mails from me... So far no response from him.

Having a tough day today overall. I haven't exercised recently and I think I need to- it keeps me a lot more positive.

love feels like bright colors, loss feels like black

I just feel grey inside