You sound so much like me when I was going through this!!!!! I felt like I was going to loose my mind. I went a few days without crying and then it would come back ten fold.
Have you ever thought about talking to a C? My C helped me to cope and survive. She helped me to make some kind of sense of it all. She was wonderful and I don't think I could have made it without her.
Treese, it does get better. You will find the peace in your life that you deserve. Your in my prayers.
(((((MOM)))))