my heart goes back and forth. Moving forward is nothing liek i thought it was suppose to look like when this all started. i don't know, so wierd i guess....some people just stop and go on and build a new life with a new person...i just don't have it in me... wierd i guess.
cant figure out what it is i am standing for? maybe more than my marriage back it is my sanity??? i dont know. do i really believe that moving forward and gaining my own life could actually bring back my x? i have read stuff lately..something like only 20% of marriages that end in divorce actually end up BACK together. I dont get it..
it is so hard imagining making a new life with a new person. maybe that is good - i dont know.
i read something about hosea the other day - and was thinking last night as i slept about Hannah and Sarah in teh Bible, Abraham, Isaac, Moses - teh stinkin' Israelites...nothing happened fast..it all took so much time for GOD to do what He planned.....and they waited-- and He did what He promised.
What did God promise me? I dont know today. I just dont know............
M-20 years/BOMB 12/24/06 Moved out 3/12/07 D final 7/30/2008 finding myself again
