I just need to vent

[Livin4ME]

Hey guys, thought I'd drop in and say hi. Things are good. I'm alittle over half way done with my school!!! yay!!! I'm so excited!!! I've had a change in my thoughts later regarding H. I'm not going to file after school. Not because things are changing between us. Some might judge me for this, but I need to get what I can from him before its over. We moved to where we are now about a year before he left, I'm not originally from here and I have no family here. When the house sells, I will no where to go. And as long as I live in the house, he won't have to pay me child support cuz he's paying all the bills. So he will be leaving next year to go back where we came from and I need to get back there. The military pays to move him out there along with is dependants. As long as we're legally married, they will move me as well.
He brought up going back just yesterday cuz I keep saying, "When we get back..." and he asked if I was going regardless. I told him yes, but didn't tell him how. I asked if SHE was going to go as well. He said only if he files. I asked why and he said cuz she doesn't want to be with a married man. I laughed. He didn't understand why. lol
I told him I didn't want to talk about it anymore. He asked why, I told him I didn't want to waste anymore of my time on her. He said the only reason I didn't like her was cuz of him. Cuz of stuff he has said about her and such. I told him no, I didn't like her because of what she has done to me. He asked what I meant, I told him she has attacked me on several reasons. I.E, her phone call at 3 am the other night. It was uncalled for. No reason for it. She was screaming and yelling at me for no reason what's so ever. And it's not the first time she's done that.
I asked him when he was gonna get his clothes back from her. Meaning the clothes she bought for him and refuses to give back. I told him there shouldn't be an issue now. He said she won't give them back because she bought them for him and she doesn't want him looking good wearing a few hundred dollars worth of clothes for me. I told him that was immature. Just like the baby thing, she wouldn't let him see the baby, have any part of it, he would never know if she kept it or not. That's very immature. His response was something like, "Well, some people just see things differently. She didn't mean that. She was hurt." Whatever. She 'miscarried' for a reason is how I feel about it. But I won't tell him that.
So we're still together. I'm playing the role of the loving, doting wife. We cuddle, say we love each other and everything. With her on the side. I don't give him ultimatums, I don't talk about her. I just need him here alittle bit longer.
I'm sure he will be moving out after my schooling is done and will more than likely file because of her. And I'm fine with that. The drama will be over. And I'll be able to start my countdown to get to where I need to be to move on with my life.