I still believe in miracles

[istherehope]

And I knew he'd crack if I didn't get online...H just texted me to see if I'm at the house. I was going to email him 20 minutes from now. So I waited 10 to respond--don't want to freak him out here too much by ignoring this. I responded "Y, enjoy your well-deserved night out--have a pint for me."

For some reason I have zero desire to speak to him at the moment. I think it's like that last time where just being here, in our house but free of the drama for awhile really helps. I'm just laying in bed watching shows on my laptop. I am trying to act as-if everything is great between us. I think it will be tonight, I really do. I cleaned a bunch of the house, made dinner (he will never comment on me making dinner, but I still like to do it), and am wearing a super-cute nightgown to bed. I just need to feel like I have a few of the cards in this game again. Not reaching out to him tonight or today, and not mentioning last night's missed late night call have really helped me with that. I think I have a new strategy for tonight. I am not going to act excited when he comes home, but just nonchalant. Of course all bets are off if he is silly drunk and speaking freely...

Alright, back to entertaining myself with shows and relaxation time...

ITH