Tips on sexy ideas?

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lifeline I totally hear you. I didn't have an A but my h is very sexual and he wants anything and I will tell you we've done EVERYTHING except Guy on Guy. That he won't. And I will admit because I am not into sex, it's not an important thing for me, it was all for him. And he can tell and so it's not as great.
I don't know how to get into it, we talked last night and the direction I think I need to look in regarding why is because of control issues I have. I've never been abused, raped, or had sex till I was married, he insists thats why, because it's been drilled in my head by my religion to wait, so that basically it makes it bad. If that is the case once I'm married it should be awesome. NOT!
So control comes into factor, I told him I hid behind the religion thing - especially since I didn't believe in alot of the religious rules in the first place, I used it as an excuse that couldn't be shot down. Where as I felt the real excuse was I was protecting myself - trust issues - The worst thing for me is to be embarrassed or feel stupid and if I was to give in to sex before I was married and had no commitment the guy would leave and I would feel stupid and embarrassed.
So now that I'm married and I have sex don't care for it just do it because it needs to be done, I take control of the situation, don't let my h please me or try to, because what if he doesn't - embarrassment sets in for both of us. But then it still tough because now I'm in control and so I must get him off and what if I don't more embarrassment, so I do only what I know I'm good at BJ's. one of which when we first started I said I'd never do - NEVER but he praised me and even now he says I'm better at that then the OW.
But he says she kisses better then I do, so now I am embarrassed and uncomfortable about that.

I'm hoping that with this new found info on control and embarrassment will help me break through this wall I have about sex so I can enjoy it, and make our marriage passionate, but hopefully its not to late.

Oh and suggestion as for things to do, I got a strip tease video and that really helps, because it's kinda like a exercise video so you learn and can feel sexy. It's great.

I really love this thread please keep posting.