my story

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so h wants to switch up a weekend with the kids, I am of course wondering why, and jumping to conclusions of course, but I am not going to ask, that would be a 180 as I am sure he is expecting me to. I need to not obsess about it though. I need to work on this distance thing, what is that website that is supposed to be so good for that?

I am still maintaining a fairly even keel, we exchanged a few "words" the other night when I suggested he could have dinner at my house tonight before the parent teacher conference and he said that would be okay if I was offering, duh didn't I just offer?

So I am still not sure if he is eating with us or not, but will plan enough so he can eat if he wants.

You know right now he seems so uncomfortable and guarded around me, I hate it, I feel like this is not going to ever change. I have no positive signs at all. I am just trying to deal but I think I need to let go of the hope because I see nothing good, I still feel like we could put it together again, I still think I would be open to that, but I just have no hints of suggestions in this regard from him at all.

Maybe that is what I need to do, just let go and get on with my life and cross bridges when I come to them.