H started out crabby this morning b/c he didn't wake up early enough and was going to be late to work, again. (He is an officer in the company so he doesn't have a set clock-in time, but he was late for when he thought he should be there)
I left him alone this morning b/c it was not my problem and not my job to fix it--I am working on my goal of not being responsible for other people's happiness!
Then I got bad news at work--2 more kids are moving away (siblings).
Next month I will be down to 2 kids after starting with 8--
I emailed H about the bad news. He told me to keep my head up and do the great job I always do and the schools will still see I am valuable in many many ways---that is basically the exact words he used.
So I thanked him for the encouraging words. Could it be he is trying to speak my LL to me???
Just enjoy it that he did speak your LL. Don't try to infer if he was trying to or not. He did it and it was good. Cheers
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.
I was joking, really. I noticed he is making an effort, no more, no less. And I appreciate it! I am taking a sabbatical from analyzing H's every move, it was wearing me out.........
My quads are killing me today. Running a total of 11 miles in 2 days took a toll...today is my rest/stretch day. Hooray!
Hi Deauxlie... Sad that not many people hang around here...
Sis, good job on letting people taking care of themselves and business. I used to be like that too, trying to "get everybody organised and happy". Now, I just smile, offer advice and continue what I was doing. And it works, with friends, family, bosses... Funny huh? K
Running around the wilderness sounds good right now...
I overreacted to something last night. Did something I don't usually do, owned up to it and apologized this morning. H responded by saying "Thanks for thinking of me, we can talk about it tonight". Now I feel like I am headed for the principal's office...................
What happened was I had class last night. Got out early b/c prof wanted to go home and watch the debate (so did I!). Got home at 8:30, I could hear H reading to the kids in their beds. (We are working on a firm 8:30 in bed time!)
So I went directly downstairs and folded laundry while watching the debate. I came up a few times to put laundry away, H was still in their bedroom. Finished laundry around 9, H came out of the bedroom a few minutes before that and was on the couch. H thanked me for going downstairs when I got home, the previous week I walked in talking loudly on my cell phone and both kids got all riled up b/c Mommy was home...it wrecked the bed time routine.
Anyway, H was on the couch watching South Park. I haven't watched in ages and normally find it pretty much adolescent humor but I admit it had some funny points...I was upstairs maybe 15 minutes or so. Then H got up and said he was going to bed, he was exhausted. I knew he was tired, he says all the time he cannot sleep (depression, anyone??).
So I should have just said goodnight but I pouted like a brat b/c he didn't offer to dialogue, we have dialogued once in 2 weeks other than our long dialogue over the weekend, which I initiated. Anyway I was on a BJ pity party b/c he didn't want to spend time with me, dialogue with me, etc, just wanted to go to bed. Then he said if you want to spend time w/me, then come to bed too. I was bitchy and said if he'd wanted me to come to bed he'd have said so in the first place and that I wouldn't be spending time with him if his plan was to fall right to sleep...
Long story, sorry, point is H was exhausted and wanted to go to bed. I took it as an insult b/c he had managed to work, go to the farm, and play with the kids but when I finally was available he was too tired. This morning I e-mailed that I was being selfish and that if he was tired he should be able to go to bed without me making a big deal about it.
He said its okay, thanks for worrying about me, we can talk more tonight.
I know I was being an immature brat, it is just frustrating that he always finds time for other things besides me......
