Actually i feel more distant if anything. Numbs the anger and frustration - G.. knows what it will do for the family.
H will do whatever he wants at the end of the day, especially if I consider the pain and hurt he is in.
I really mean it , when i say it would be easier to do what your wife is doing. I think that not only does she need to stand on her own 2 feet but she has to face what she has done. No contact seems great to me - not now so much - but early days and if I had of done that , i would not be posting this.
A clean slate - magic - but a receipe for disaster . She will be living proof of past behavior predicting future behaviour.
Tell me what you have planned for kids. I know it is halloween soon there. Not such a big thing here but big enough that I do a very good trade in my shop (costume shop ). We have lots of anti people with halloween
I am a little tired and H called in tonight and the first thing he said was ' you look tired ' Funny thing was that in our very first MC session nearly 4 years ago, our coucillor said - 'always note how tired you wife is. See her tiredness.' H never did until tonight.
Step in right direction - who knows
Well I have had a glass of wine after a busy day. Its raining outside and I love lying in bed and hearing it, so thats relaxing.
Be nice to know what your up to and how YOUR coping. I always have my fingers crossed for you. If you wife only understood how to face the music and allow you both to rebuild.
With 2 willing partners , that road would be that much easier.
Cheers sorry about spelling - some of it is american spelling verses rest of world and some of it is tiredness and just bad spelling.
