Oh Treese, (((((((())))))) vent away, this is sooooo hard I know. Just make sure you have more better days than the down ones. Has your medication been checked recently, maybe you need a different AD or higher dose if you feel you are slipping back. All I can tell you it does get easier.Very slowly day by day. We have to have zero expectations of them. I am not sure they hurt or suffer either. After 7 years my xH has shown no regret to me,he m the OW and they are still together. I think in long term marriages that when they leave us ie move out, they have actually moved out long before that so they are prepared for it, we just have the bomb and then have to ajust, no time to get our head around it and that makes it so much harder. We are torn between wanting to believe they will wake up and return home and knowing that will never happen. Having no contact helped me, not talking to the children about him also helped. They are torn too and have devided loyalties. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other and live your life for you. H can if he chooses always catch up -he knows where you are. Hope today brings you some joy or at the very least less pain. (((()))))
