Cagz, My H is still living at home, but at this point, a year post-bomb, he has hurt me enough (and still does, as there is no end in sight to his A and cool treatment of me) that I have put my former *feelings* of love in storage. They are banned from expression and are therefore of no use right now anyway. My love for him is of the agape variety--action, not feelings. I agree--this is a *much* easier way to live given his ongoing appalling behavior. If it weren't for AD's, I'd probably still be a complete mess--or dead. The meds help insulate me from the feelings, which would bring nothing but pain right now.
Well, I didn't mean to make this all about me. I think you can take those feelings out and dust them off if you need them again. Hope you are doing well, Cagz!
Blessings and peace, Dawn
Me 45/H 47, no kids Together since 1985; M/1992 Bomb1 (EA-OW1, age 22) 2001 Bomb2 (EA/PA-OW2, age 22) 10/2007, A continues H left 11/24/08 minimal contact, no legal action http://tinyurl.com/DawnHope1
