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[MsMelancoly]

Hey Coach, Thanx for stopping by I miss your posts. But you are working on your life as well you should.

My post & my state of mind was not helped by having a couple of drinks ....ooppps. I'm doing better.... bouncing back again. Maybe I need to read that book you mentioned.

Forrest mentioned something on another thread about seeing the others point of view. I understand .... I understand ....but I'm tired of seeing my H's view ... what about me & my point of view??? Strange in a talk H & had earlier, he mentioned that even if we get D - we could still work on our M or R. Unless he has changed how He deals w/things - it wouldn't change much & I wouldn't want an R with him. What's the point so he could run away & not talk to me again when things get tough??

Been thinking about my cheesetunnels. The one thing I haven't been is a total b*tch. I have also thought about dropping some of his things off at his house. I could use the storage space so maybe I should drop the gravel & garden trains & other non essentials he left here. Or I was thinking of asking a male friend if he would help me load up some of my H's bigger furniture items here & deliver them w/me in his truck.

My H makes it seem he wants to be free of me .... so maybe I should cut the cord & give him his freedom & happiness.

For me what have I been doing. Well, I put up outside Halloween decorations by myself this weekend. I did a pretty good job - if I don't say so myself - had fun too. Inside .. I'm still working on it. I received my new, used laptop today & was excited to use it. So far I am happy as it seems a lot faster than my other. Now my H can have that slow piece of sh*t that takes 15 minutes to start up if you turn it off. And that is no lie.

Thank you again ... I still hurt ... but you know how it goes. The pains dies away & you begin to wonder ....