For the Guy with Kids and a WW Diez y Seis

[hopeful4her]

Hey lwb.

When I talked to her, I try to come off as cool as I can. Sometimes I can come across as all business, but not typically. Her response to me this morning was one of guilt, I think. Who knows? I know her pretty well. Her unwaranted defensiveness is always a dead giveaway.

One day she is nice, the next day, she can be as tough as a snake. Thats just her. Her push away mechanism. My answer to her of "Ok, then I'll talk to you later" is MY shut down mechanism. I say it quickly and try to get off the phone.

I did finish the Sarah Marshall movie. It WAS hilarious!! It had me laughing and laughing! Now I'm going to have to see "Knocked Up". Funny to see myself in a couple of scenes. I was laughing at myself. The only hard part was watching her supposedly coming to her senses and then when they were in her bedroom, with her saying she missed him.

That was her a year and a half ago. We had big problems for about 2 months. We gave it another try, and on the night we had sex again, she told me those same words.

"I missed you." Right in the middle, me on top, holding me close to her.

Ahem, anyhooooo.....

I got to the teacher conference a couple minutes late. She was already sitting with the teacher. She was in a light kinda skimpy T that she has had and her shorts. The one pair she looks good in. Very casual. Like she was doing some work. Not meeting an L or anything like that. Like, just running around. I say hi to the teacher and then the wife tells me hi. We talk about Juli and she is talking very highly about my little girl. A little of a rough start, but doing nicely now. We talk about a couple things just like parents should. When we finish, and I'm kinda joking and being cool, I mention to the teacher that I met someone that "Just LOVES you!".

She says, "Oh really?" and SHE makes a joke about so many that do. I say that girls first and last name. Not Mrs. so and so.
"Oh, really. Oh she is so nice....do you have a child in her class?"
"Uh..no. Actually I met her this weekend."

I wanted to look at the wife so bad, but I didn't want to blow my coolness.

We end up leaving and walking towards our cars and Juli is wanting to go play in the playground for a bit. We say ok. On the way, the wife tells me that she did NOT enroll her in the Y. They wanted the enrollment fee, the rest of October and all of November now. Be paid up until Decemeber. She says that she didn't have the money. She is going to ask the lady for another week.

I'm thinking, if she didn't have the money, why even try to enroll her? Or at least let me know.

Another thing I was thinking about. She has no bed still. I would think that the OM would have bought her one by now. He has to have some money. I believe that he has been giving her some. Not 100% sure, but I just see no way that she is making it on her paycheck. That night of our talk in her kitchen last week or so, she was saying how she has learned to stretch a dollar. She was spending a lot at first, she admitted, but then learned a lesson.

I just don't know. If it were me, I would have at least gotten her a bed. My son is on sleeping bags. She is on her sofa. Doesn't make sense.

Anyway, at the playground, I agree with asking the lady for more time. One JuliAna's friends from the party is swinging and she asks me to swing her. The wife is swinging Juli and I'm pushing Devaney. The wife and I talk a bit about her dad, who I was talking to at the party. It is the grandma who is there with her. She tells me that the grandma picks her up everyday. She does not work anymore. I say, "Ohhhh".

She says, "I'm gonna go talk to her. Maybe we can have HER stay with Juli." She gives me her "Okay, here I go" look and goes to sit with the grandma. I stay with the girls and we are playing and really having a good time. My little even gets a little jealous with me playing with her friend a little too much. It was cute. I can remember being that little and being the same way with my mom.

We stay for about 35 minutes. As I'm playing with the girls, I look over to the wife and give her my head nod, like, "Well?" She looks back at me and gives me the smile and sideways pursed lip. That tells me no.

We know each other so well.

We all leave and we are now at the cars. Juli is wanting to go to the gas station as usual. We both say no. She is going home and the wife is saying that they have to go fix supper.

"Besides, we have to go eat and then Amanda wants to go to do kaoroke(I just don't know how to spell that stupid word)."

I say very casually, "You know...if you want to go to Perico's, you gonna have to get there before 6. After that, you won't be able to even find a seat."
"Oh. You've been there?" she asks kind of surprised and defensive at the same time.
"Yup." I only say. She is giving me the "M hmmm" look.

Strapping my little one in and telling her goodbye.
"Tell daddy goodbye. We have to go."
"But I want to go to the gas station."
"No. I don't have the money."
I look at the wife and ask her,
"Did you get the money, because Amanda was playing like she was going to take it."
She pauses for a second. I thought she was about to ask me, "What money?"
I look at her. "You mean the money in the book?"
"Yes."
"Yes, I did. And thanks for the book." She said this without looking at me and kind of quietly. Like she didn't really want to tell me thank you. Me getting her the book, pushed some kind of button. Guilty button, sad button, angry button. Not sure which one it was. It wasn't meant to push anything, other than show her I thought about her. Like a stoopid.

I don't say anything back to her. No "your welcome". I just say goodbye again, close the door and give a wave.

Now is a good time for the darkness.

I liked how I brought up the teacher. I liked her look when she asked me about the restaurant. She was watching me playing with our daughter and her friend. And I looked and smelled good.

Played very cool. Not that it matters, really, but it felt good.

Just gonna worry about myself. I got some good plans for the weekend.