My W Convinced, D Is The Answer!

[Little Engine]

I miss them so much it hurts. I don't miss the person that was my W, but wonder if I had tried for longer if we could of rebuilt something there and our boys not had to suffer for the next 15 years or whatever.

I miss my kids too, but it is getting easier. As far as my W, well she would have to want to save our M as much as I do, and right now I think we are about equal in our desire.

I really hurt for my kids, and this guilt will never go away I'm sure. But I know that I am a great father and when I talk to them on the phone, they are all excited about coming to see me. D was asking if we are going to play Hide & Seek on Friday night again. I think I may take them to a movie. There are some good ones, we still haven't seen from summer at the second run house. It is a cheap night of fun for them. I usually take them to a taco stand that they really like, then follow up with ice cream and that is a treat. Should be good times. I know they don't have as much fun with W because D told her "Daddy is the fun parent now, you're just always grouchy." When I stayed last week D was laying in bed next to me and she said "Daddy, don't tell Mommy, but you are just a little more important." I said, "Oh why is that?" D responded "I see Mommy for two weeks, but I only get to see you for two days!" I said "Well Mommy loves you too, just as much as Daddy." D adds, "I know, but you are more important." Made me feel good, but she probably says the same things to W. Gotta love a kid trying to curry favor.