Wow, thank you for the replys, you guys are still amazing! Love my fellow DBers!
Right now, I have my daughter every other weekend. I check in every other day via telephone and soon we will start having dinner 1 night per week. I also joined a beach club that we will enjoy together next summer.
When I am busy, things are good. Lately what has been happening is that I wake up around 4AM and get a little gloomy. I start thinking back to when things were good and our daughter was a little tot. Those days were awesome! I toss and turn a bit wondering what I could have done different. I know this is pointless, but I am a guy who has a hard time dealing with failure.
I've discussed this with some of my ex's friends and they tell me ... STOP. You are a really good guy, a good husband, good father and a great provider. Your wife did not want to be married. Nothing you can do about it.. move on. She does not view the world the way you do, during your marriage you put your child first, she did not.
It's interesting.. this gloomy feeling in the morning started just when my ex and I started to get a long better. I guess when we were not getting along it reinforced the reasons for the divorce.
I never thought that this would be so hard. Again, nothing to do with my ex, I have no interest in her. It is the "death of the family" and the impact this will have on my daughter.
