WAW - Possible MLC I need help, WAWs advice

[thrillisgone]

Thanks for asking! I'm in a pretty good place most days. Where I have problems is when I mull over memories that are so inconsistent with what has happened.

As time goes forward a certain clarity emerges. It gets easier but 30 years is impossible to leave behind. A small and ever smaller part of me is still hanging on. The worst fear I have is that my ExW will come out of this down the road and my feelings will be totally gone. I'll always love her but not the way I did.

I just have this nagging feeling that my ExW thinks that I'll be there always. Afterall I was. It is as though she can't help herself and has to do this but doesn't want to really let go totally. Just a feeling. That is as perverse as it is scary.