(((MSMel)))) Sorry I missed this. It's Ok to hurt, nothing about this is good. What are you doing for yourself these days? Is your house already decorated for Halloween? I got your mesage on FB but I can't get on FB lately. Call if you want. I owe you a shoulder to cry on. Take care of yourself.
M22,H45,W45 S21/18D12 Retain faith that you will prevail in the end, regardless of the difficulties and at the same time confront the most brutal facts of your current reality, whatever they might be.