Grant, you have some very good points. I have done okay with the detaching, but I am not sure exactly what that is. I still love him very much.
He did come by and pick up the money. It is very strange, because he called, and when I answered the first thing he asked is if I was okay. I told him yes. I actually was. I think now that I have gotten past the walking on eggshells phase, things are definitely better.
He stopped, and got out of the truck, and automatically gave me a hug. I don't know about men, but when woman don't want anything more to do with their SO, they don't hug. But at any rate, I did a 180 and gave him a friendship hug, one armed, little rub on the back. He was the one who did the whole chest to chest hug thing. At any rate, gave him the envelope, asked him how he was, he said fine busy blah blah, I said okay, bye, and turned and walked away.
And I feel okay, which shocks the hell out of me. Usually I am very broken up, or hurt and missing him. Today, I feel as if nothing special happened at all. It was just another day.
Weird.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
