(((Mishka))) That is my plan. He is coming by after lunch, so I have the out of oh sorry busy blah blah gotta get back to work, can't chat. I suppose part of me just wanted a little contact. Although these past 10 days I have missed him, it has not been nearly as hard as I thought. I have done a tremendous amount of vacillating, hate him/love him, screw him/still love him. I have laughed and cried. Part of me almost wishes I had not sent that text this morning. It makes me feel guilty in some way, and I am not sure why. I guess it is because I am supposed to get getting over him, and I know I have pulled myself right back in again. And I feel stupid.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
