Actually he hasn't contacted me at all today, but to be fair he's been in client meetings all day, and probably not even online much at all. Then he flies home at around 9 PM. It's possible he'll email tonight, but in all likelihood he will not. He tries to have days where he doesn't contact me, and this would likely be one of them given yesterday's interactions, and tomorrow's impending stay.
He did text me 4 times last night though, and one said "good night". So that was nice...
I believe with all of my heart that things are meant to work out with H, i.e. that it is "fated", but subject to change. Of course I could always mess it up from my side by pushing where he has asked me not to. Well, no scheduled R talk for tomorrow, but I do believe that if nothing gets aired before he comes home from drinking, one is likely to happen...I'll just play it by ear in terms of whether I push or not. I will only do what feels natural and good, and will try not to repeat old patterns. I also have a bit of the feeling that he will reach out to me prior to showing up, but it may only be idle chit-chat. I am going to try to actively avoid him until he gets home tomorrow I think. Still, I have had the feeling that something big would happen in these next 2 days, and have had this feeling for quite some time now...
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Me:34 H:36 M:5 years T: 8 years Bomb: 07/17/08 I want to be separated for 6 months--I don't know what I want the outcome to be S 07/28/08-11/08/08 Living together ~7 months D Possibly busted?!?!!!
