I've found a nice bit of calm. Had a breakout session with my group yesterday which brought some stuff up. Came home to W asleep on the sofabed. Woke her up so she could go home and ended up falling asleep beside her till 3am. I covered her with a blanket and went to sleep upstairs.
When I woke her in the morning she wasn't in a hurry to leave while I was rubbing her back. When she did go I felt at peace. Kind of like I was ok with whatever happens. I'm still there, it's nice. It is easier to miss her and love her from here though so I have to be careful.
Me:34 W:31 d's 5 & 10 M: 5 years, T: 8, Bomb1 3/8/08,#2:3/28/08 Asked 4 D:4/19/08, discovered PA 5/8/08,W moved out 6/30/08 W pregnant by OM: 2/17/08
