What now ?

[Manwithaheart]

Ok it was a coin toss between piecing and this area…

Short in sweet overview

W29
ME29

Christmas ’06 ILUBNILWU

Left Feb ’07 had an affair

I had a month long fling with someone myself

Reconciled Aug ‘07

Been working on it since.

I can understand that piecing takes time and we are both doing “OK” at it. Sure we have our back slides and small fights.

Our problem is SEX… She has been home over a year now and we have ML three times!
Our last time was this weekend after we both have been having a few drinks with friends and got a little frisky after words. Before that it was getting on 8 months !!! We have been married for 3 years now. Before we got married sex was pretty good. Maybe once a week at times. After we got married it slid down to once a month. Then we separated..

We have talked about it and the conversation goes from…. “I don’t feel we should ML if we are not having kids yet” to “ I’m not sure why I don’t want it”

I’ve caught her masturbating a few times, when she knows full well I am in the mood.

She seems more keen on watching each other masturbating rather then touching each other. My love language is physical touch and reassurance.

She has even told me she is turned on more then what she makes me believe.

I can 100% say the OM is no longer in the picture nore is any other person.

No words can describe how I feel ! I’m not even 30 yet and going through this BS.

I can feel myself slipping into depression more and more… I can’t even afford to see my consoler anymore due to extremely tight finances.

Still doing my best to GAL and work on me… but how long due I have to put myself through this torture. I almost feel like walking out myself now…

I need some advise…