God grant me the patience and the strength...8

[theotherhalf]

Morning,

It's like I never slept. I woke thinking the same things when I went to bed.

So I feel I've put my love for him on a shelf, but all that did is make room for the anger. So what do I do about it? Let it go? Deal with all this myself? From reading here it will do no good to make him see this reality. It isn't going to change a thing, right?

You know, I decided to stand for my M so that I would not have any regrets. Because I loved him and had more faith in him then he did himself. I didn't file for D because I believed in our M and our love for each other.

Today I am starting to feel the regrets. If I would have filed from the very beginning, made him sell everything to give me half. I would be just fine. I could have bought a house that I could afford without his help. I'd not be in trouble with the law. I would still have my self respect.

It all seems to been for nothing...