well the last couple days have been better, twice on sunday he came over and both times I was not home, he called me once, and the next time the kids and I were on a walk, funny but it felt good to not be sitting there waiting for him.
I have been busy with school and not feeling quite as down, it helps to have other things to think about and also helps to have that little cry behind me. Maybe I need to let these things out once in a while.
H is kind of strange when he is here, he seems uncomfortable. I don't know why, I asked him if he made an appointment with the divorce counselor and he said not yet, because he has been busy, no other reason. He mentioned tonight that it is hard for him to come and help me in the mornings twice in a week, so he is wondering if my mom can come and help instead, I will think about it and see what I can come up with. I may have to work something else out. Not sure how to handle this, I kind of need to get to my early class, but.... this has to work as well.
strange how at times you can feel so numb to it all.
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08
