Hey guys! Just getting to check in and I can't believe how awesome the posts are! But you are awesome friends, so I guess I shouldn't be surprised! \:\) I'm going to have to print out most of them and save them to read when I'm feeling in a weaker mood.

All good stuff! You're right I can't be concerned anymore about H's feelings, need to focus on the kids and myself to some extent who is trying to take care of them. I need to find out the book BH read, it sounds good, and I do want to work on my boundaries and those issues before I would have any future R's. Although I also hope not to get involved with someone that is very much into pushing my boundaries so much also.

Actually still have the flu and D8 as well. I did take her to the afterschool program today and I did, since I'm one of the teachers and they don't have any extras. They had done a brochure asking for volunteers in the church bulletin but I think a lot of moms either work or have babies or whatever. I still enjoyed it, but with that and hsing today I lost my voice by 6:40 when H got here. I had planned to lay down and rest at that time b/c I didn't have any chance to rest today before that, and my throat was killing me. I feel much better after taking a 2 hour nap! Then I basically woke up as H was walking out the door. I did see him once or twice today, but he didn't say hi to me (never does really) and for a change I ignored him b/c I do normally say hi and bye. Just felt too sick or whatever to even be polite, I wasn't mad or angry or anything. And gosh, if it was me, I'd be asking "How're you feeling? or something, and he didn't say a word. Didn't expect him to of course.

I did notice that the 2 times I was there, both times H happened to be there like looking at me. In the hallway when D8 came in my room right in front of my door, and when I came to help D8 with the computer he came out into the kitchen to get ice cubes. Maybe a tiny bit of him actually worried about how I was or something, and he couldn't bring himself to ask. Who knows?

I know I have a great life though: great kids, great friends, faith, health, and everything else. I am really grateful for all I have. Thanks y'all. \:\)

Karen

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D18, S24