Here I am....real life and all.

[Starshyne]

Thanks Michelle. I am moving forward each and every day. Most of my days are easy-going and drama free. The kids I teach this year are extremely challenging academically. But they are very sweet. I am still "dating" (or whatever you call it) that guy that I've known from high school. He is nice and I am having new experiences and doing things that I have never done before thanks to him (he is really into motorcycles and I am enjoying learning about them).


The STD is treatable, I just don't know how long before it is gone for good (genital warts). They are just annoying, but not painful. But it is just another thing I have to deal with as well as a reminder of what my xh did.

I know my xh will figure out his life on his own now. I no longer can help him. I am working through all of that. I realize that I never had a time of seperation like many of you did. So I am going through some feelings and things a little slower. But I went straight from him living here with me (well sort of) to divorce in a matter of a few weeks. But I know I am getting there. I can tell. I am starting to sleep a little better.

Things still make me sad. My students are going to be doing the "pumpkin play" next week. My xh made the pumpkins that we use in the play. He painted styrofom balls orange and put them on sticks. They are adorable! The kids love them. But they make me sad. My old husband, the one I fell in love with, he used to make great artistic stuff for my class to use. Now he is gone. But I am still here....doing the best I can.