I haven't heard from W since Saturday night. I've been thinking about her actions lately and I have come to the conclusion that I'm trying to rationalize the irrational. She smiles and laughs when we are together, She acts like life is great but then she calls me and tells me how stressed she is. She doesn't call me as much since she lost her job but our conversations are better than ever (post bomb) then she tells me the pumpkin pie thing. There doesn't seem to be a clear consistency to her. There probably isn't a clear consistency in her mind either.
On the other hand I think I finally figured out how she is changing. She is actually slowly becoming the person she was 5 or 6 years ago. This is a good thing. She is laughing at the jokes that she use to find funny rather than trying to be straight faced and cool. She is becoming light hearted again. She is showing more interest in the kids again.
I have said as long as I have been here that our communication has been good but I can see how it is much better now that it has been in almost 2 years.
I just have to keep being patient.
M35 W37 S9 D6 M12 yrs Know 15 yrs Bomb 1/28/07 My Sitch Failure is the opportunity to start again more intelligently - Henry Ford