My H checked out of our marriage a long time ago. DB'ing couldn't change that, but it has changed me. I'm extremely grateful for that. I am a better person.
Tomorrow I'm filing papers. I vacilitate between strength and weakness. I know I'll survive somehow, but it still hurts like heck.
My goal is probably too broad for DBing. I want to live life well and raise an amazing daughter. How to do that? How is it defined for me? By succeeding in my profession and concentrating on all the positives around me. I would love for him to look back one day and say, "man, how could I give that up?"
Childish and not focused enough, perhaps. Knowing deep down in my heart I gave it my all and that I will survive is priceless.
Me 35 H 41 M 10 years Together 12 years D,6 SS, 17,19
