Okay well my hubby is now 3,000 miles away from here. . .
Sigh.
Yesterday was a great day. A little stressful but we got along really really well. While I was with him I got a call for a job interview which promted talk about moving in together when he got home, he got whishy washy on me but I just let it slide and said it was okay that he did not know yet because he had a lot on his mind and then just dropped it. I guess I will just have to wait this out a little longer. But a job interview!!! Yay! Things are looking up as far as that goes.
It was just a really good day. Lol. Sorry. I don't mean to gush I just am replaying it all in my head and it was just good. It was bittersweet though because as much fun as we had it was sad because it was the last day for awhile. But the goal was to leave him with nothing but good memories! Mission accomplished. Nothing too exciting happened, we had a lot of errands to run to get him ready to leave. Watched a movie, went to a late dinner, came home and ML and then went to sleep since we had to be up so early. We did talk a lot about everything before we fell asleep. Nothing too serious but it was good, I felt like we were really close.
Then this morning we got up at the crack of dawn and got ready to leave for the airport. Made a Starbucks run! Essentials I tell ya!
When he went to get out of the car he kissed me and said "see ya in a month" and I got my first ILY in months!!! I said it first but he reciprocated and that is all that matters. Another kiss and there he went. . .
I cried all the way home. I'm okay now though. Just had to get it out of my system. In reality it is not that long. He already has his return flight booked which made me feel 1000 times better because then I know they cannot "make a paperwork mistake" and keep him forever! So November 11th I will get my babe back.
He has been texting me all afternoon in between flights and such. He is in DC right now about to get on his plane to Virginia. I think he is okay though. Just anxious.
I did write the letter and send it with him. It turned out a little different than the one I posted here but it was along the same lines, just longer. I also included the Scripture from our wedding vows to remind him of me/us. I tucked it into his folder and told him to wait and read it on the plane, per tradition. I got his sweatshirt, per tradition. Hehe. I'm wearing it right now. So cozy.
The next month is going to be a challenge but I think I will just have to keep busy, hang out with friends, etc. If I get this job I will definatly be busy. I managed to make it through six months without him and that was even tougher because we were living together beforehand and used to seeing each other everyday and it was hard because I was in "our" place so there were memories and his belongings. A lot tougher than this probably will be. So it's ok. I'm happy that he is already texting me about everything. I think this time apart is going to give him a lot to think about, as he has already been doing. i just gotta focus on that and I will be okay!
I am still frustrated by this moving situation. I wish he would just tell me what he wants to do. Yesterday he went back to "I don't know what I want to do yet" which is fine but I have to get moving on with my own life and I don't want to move out on my own and then two or three months later have to move again when he decides that it is what he wants. That's a lot of work and a lot of stress. I guess I will just get my second job, save money for a deposit, start looking a little here and there and just see what happens in the next few weeks. Maybe once he gets settled into his life on base he will have more time to think about what he wants to do when he gets home. I'm just so impatient!!!
But it's all good. I'm still so excited that I got an ILY!
