OK, so decision made. Thanks you so much to all of you! I have decided that this trip home is the time to " talk!" At some point next week, I will get him alone and have this discussion with him. I have done this in the past, but I'm not sure I did it right. The last time I did this, I told him becoming a nun was a deal breaker in my eyes, and that me being a nun or faithful would NOT last. In hindsight, maybe I could have left the unfaithful part out. He listened and was respectful, but said nothing, and nothing changed. This time I will try and choose my words differently and see where it takes me.
But, this led to one hard question I have........ Bagherra, you said to NOT get into the fact that I'm not so much into him right now...... However, HOW do I get across that I don't want to come home and jump in bed. Here's the problem. We've had these discussions before, it leads to a week of sex. Maybe 3 times, then POOF, two years go by with nothing. THIS time, I want change first, I want it to last. No quick fix. So how do i tell him, this doesn't me I want him to suck it up, jump me, and then were back to square one. I don't want to hurt his feelings, but I don't also want to be put in a position where I either have to turn him down ( which I'm sure would confuse him ) OR ML, and then he thinks I'm appeased and we go another 2 years. I won't do that again.
Hes home between the 17, and the 24. Watch for posts then, because Ill either be happy, confused, or climbing the walls.. lol
