Check Out My Swing!-Life in the Rough

[kelaaron]

Ok girls, as I really haven't posted alot about the MLC stuff I thought you might get a kick. Like I said earlier, I really thought it was only me.

Up until Sept 06, I was wonderful, he couldn't wait to be home with me etc... Then all of that niceness stopped but the spew didn't really start coming until June 07. I was told, let's see if I can remember it all, I had an affair with a man 1500 miles away, I was wrong for asking him what time he was coming back to hotel when we were in Ocean City Md in October 06. Too controlling, stealing money, doesn't trust me with himself anymore, trapped him by getting sick, wants out from under thumb, wasn't giving up "friend" for me, he was moving to Maine (from Florida) with a woman he knew for 5 days. (Then he never said that). Then things sort of calmed for a while. I had the surgery and I thought things were getting better. Then this year, Again with the MD crap, too controlling, still going on about affair and can't forgive me for A 15 years ago, ILY but it isn't the same in my heart and soul anymore, I don't want to give you any other reason to hate me, I'm sorry I've been such a failure as a husband, going backwards in my career, don't want to answer to anyone anymore, you can't tell me what to do, don't need a mother, are you questioning my judgement, I wake up everyday wishing you weren't breathing. Probably a whole lot more but it is unreal. Now he knows I wasn't having an A, he knows I wasn't stealing, but it still hurts him. So I'm wrong for everything but HE is not doing anything wrong, spending hours on phone with OW (he didn't realize how much time he was talking to her), seeing her everyday at work and who knows what else. Not that it matters cuz it hurt for a while and now it doesn't bother me anymore.

Know what just struck me as funny? Maybe I"m as crazy as he is for staying through all of this crap. Maybe we all are. It all hurt at the time but now it just makes me laugh, and a little sad, cuz I don't understand how their minds go to these places. The man I met and married was wierd, but this is just plain irrational. Oh well.

Sorry you guys won't share the hot tub and stove. I'll just have to keep being jealous as I read about them. All I have is a pool.