In true DB style, as frustrating and fruitless the work seems to be, I know I must do it. Whether the outcome is a repaired happy marriage or leaving the marriage, I must do this. If I don't do everything that I can to at least try to fix my marriage one last time, I would look back with regret if I just walked out without giving it my all.
The first time I left I had not put any work into it trying to fix it. I was at the end of my rope and totally disconnected from her. I walked away. This left me with a lot of guilt and looking back it was part of the reason I was so easily drawn back when I thought she was ready to give us another chance. We never put in the work though and that's why we are back to our same old problems (SSM).
That being said, at some point our spouses must join us and do their part of the work too. I AM fed up, but I will still give this a year (next May) and then I can move forward with my life with or without her. God I hope she will join me, but if she doesn't I will have done all that I could and prepared myself for leaving if her choice is to not to join me.
Diane, only you can make the choice that is right for you and I know that it is a very difficult decision to make. I know how sad it feels to have this burden on us.
