I can so relate, you head wants you to get better and let go and move on, but your heart says wait, what if, and I love him... I am in the same place, and it really hurts sometimes.
I have been thinking of it as a step in this road, at first neither our heads or our hearts could believe it, not we are getting out head around it, our hearts will follow. I don't think it is bad to hold a small space
Me 41 H 42 DD 11 DS 8 M 18 bomb 8/3/06 separating 9/18/08