Check Out My Swing!-Life in the Rough

[Babygirl]

hmmmmmm yeah probably lol! lets see alien abductions, mlc, chemo, oh well, what doesnt kill us makes us stronger.

I started chemo during the fall winter, low dose, which ended up aggravationg a lymph node they were already watching. So now I am taking a higher dose for my chemo, and awaiting the results from the huge peice they took from the node. oh the joy. well one thing I can tell you, is that my toilet has NEVER been as clean as it has been this past year lol!!!

[kelaaron]

I too had a very bad BC scare last year. No chemo luckily. Now waiting for some results on ultrasound that was supposed to be kidney but ended up focusing on liver. Just don't know what to think. Funny thing about it all, H is actually interested this time. In the past, he has always been distant when I have been extremly sick or going through something (cervical cancer, gallbladder, 2 BC scares). The last BC scare was the worst. Instead of just being detached and trying to be strong, he simply didn't care and that was the one that they told me I would die from. But that hit right after the first Bomb so.......... This time he has been checking on me quite a bit, see how I'm feeling, he is telling me "just checking to see if you are alive," but he was actually upset on Sunday and concerned yesterday and today. Funny cuz a couple of months ago, he told me he wished I was dead. Maybe we are on our way to the beginning of being out of this mess. I am not getting my hopes up though.

[kelaaron]

Babygirl--I want your wood burning stove and 1hopes hot tub. Then I wouldn't care how cold it got!!!!!!!

[1hope]

Funny cuz a couple of months ago, he told me he wished I was dead.

OMG! My H said the same thing! Shocked me down to my toes! All I responded was "No, not after I've worked so hard to live."

Jeeze, what is up with these M?

Babygirl, I read some of your sitch. My heart goes out to you. The OW that you are dealing with sounds purely evil. I thought that I had it bad with the "medical professional" student nurse that took advantage of our situation.

I have to tell you. I would find some way for her employer to find out about her emails. Also, in some states it is now against the law to harass via email. This OW (X-stripper?) deserves to be on jerry springer lol!

Kelaaron, sorry that you also have had health issues. Sometimes life just sucks! Hope that all goes with for you.

[1hope]

Babygirl--I want your wood burning stove and 1hopes hot tub. Then I wouldn't care how cold it got!!!!!!!

Nope!!!!! No deal! Was a treat to myself after I finished chemo!

[Babygirl]

hey no way on my woodstove either lol, it was a gift from my daddy after the winter before 2 weeks on a generator from a winter storm, and my only heat source lol.

my H seems to detatch from my health issues. it totally sucks, oh well. of course the OW totally said I was making it all up, yeah uh how do you make your hair fall out on purpose lol? she is a nut job. LMAO at jerry springer, omg I would love that lol! course if she would just stop when she drives by I could start that show in my front yard hehehe.

[MT35]

Yes 1hope, keelaron and Babygirl,

You all have quite a bit in common! Not just health wise, but you are all very inspirational! It makes me greatful that I have my health I can't imagine dealing with this MLC and OW while trying to fight a disease.

[Babygirl]

I pray you never have to new friend! we just got into a fight about him getting a flu shot! a flippen flu shot! ugh, maybe its time for a new dog, they are so much easier lol!

[kelaaron]

Ok girls, as I really haven't posted alot about the MLC stuff I thought you might get a kick. Like I said earlier, I really thought it was only me.

Up until Sept 06, I was wonderful, he couldn't wait to be home with me etc... Then all of that niceness stopped but the spew didn't really start coming until June 07. I was told, let's see if I can remember it all, I had an affair with a man 1500 miles away, I was wrong for asking him what time he was coming back to hotel when we were in Ocean City Md in October 06. Too controlling, stealing money, doesn't trust me with himself anymore, trapped him by getting sick, wants out from under thumb, wasn't giving up "friend" for me, he was moving to Maine (from Florida) with a woman he knew for 5 days. (Then he never said that). Then things sort of calmed for a while. I had the surgery and I thought things were getting better. Then this year, Again with the MD crap, too controlling, still going on about affair and can't forgive me for A 15 years ago, ILY but it isn't the same in my heart and soul anymore, I don't want to give you any other reason to hate me, I'm sorry I've been such a failure as a husband, going backwards in my career, don't want to answer to anyone anymore, you can't tell me what to do, don't need a mother, are you questioning my judgement, I wake up everyday wishing you weren't breathing. Probably a whole lot more but it is unreal. Now he knows I wasn't having an A, he knows I wasn't stealing, but it still hurts him. So I'm wrong for everything but HE is not doing anything wrong, spending hours on phone with OW (he didn't realize how much time he was talking to her), seeing her everyday at work and who knows what else. Not that it matters cuz it hurt for a while and now it doesn't bother me anymore.

Know what just struck me as funny? Maybe I"m as crazy as he is for staying through all of this crap. Maybe we all are. It all hurt at the time but now it just makes me laugh, and a little sad, cuz I don't understand how their minds go to these places. The man I met and married was wierd, but this is just plain irrational. Oh well.

Sorry you guys won't share the hot tub and stove. I'll just have to keep being jealous as I read about them. All I have is a pool.

[MT35]

That is funny, H was just asking if he should get a flu shot on Friday.