Check Out My Swing!-Life in the Rough

[kelaaron]

I too had a very bad BC scare last year. No chemo luckily. Now waiting for some results on ultrasound that was supposed to be kidney but ended up focusing on liver. Just don't know what to think. Funny thing about it all, H is actually interested this time. In the past, he has always been distant when I have been extremly sick or going through something (cervical cancer, gallbladder, 2 BC scares). The last BC scare was the worst. Instead of just being detached and trying to be strong, he simply didn't care and that was the one that they told me I would die from. But that hit right after the first Bomb so.......... This time he has been checking on me quite a bit, see how I'm feeling, he is telling me "just checking to see if you are alive," but he was actually upset on Sunday and concerned yesterday and today. Funny cuz a couple of months ago, he told me he wished I was dead. Maybe we are on our way to the beginning of being out of this mess. I am not getting my hopes up though.