Don't know what to do- Please help

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Thanks again Saffie

I have been thinking that, but you know so much is going around in my head right now, breaking down every little piece of our lives.
I wonder if H is just to scared to take that step, and this is what keeps him here, because he knows that the fall out from that step would be worse then him staying with me, he would have to face the world and admit he tossed his family aside for the ow, and he know how people would look at him.
I know the ow is just trying to hurt me, and its worked I am afraid, because I can't make sense of if he loved and wanted me then he would hang on to her.

Its just so hard to figure it all out, and its hard to know if what he says is true.