kelaaron, Thank you. You brought tears to my eyes. I know that this forum helps me to vent, but being able to help someone else is a plus.
I went to bed last night at 10. H came home about 30 minutes later. He did not come up to bed, but slept on the couch. When the alarm went off I got up, got my coffee and went out to the hot tub. He did not join me, but was in the shower when I came inside. I went upsairs to the second floor bathroom, and H came up a bit later. I said "did you and Bill have fun last night?" He said, "he wasn't there." "He must have left before I got there, because he was there earlier." "The other guys were all there." Then he asked "did you have fun?" I said "All I did was deposit your check and pick up the RX's, I was back home right after that and was here for the night." He said "he was there when I got out of work, but must not have had enough money to stay long. I came home to use the bathroom, and also to see what you were doing(he added quickly),when you said you had something to do I decided to go down and meet him." (So now his going to the bar for the night is my fault?) I said, "I thought you wanted us to do something in the barn?" He said, "well I should have."
A few minutes later he was testy about how fresh the lunch meat in the fridge was, but I didn't rush to his assistance and just said I got it a couple of days ago. He made his lunch, fixed his thermos and left without goodbye. Happy hangover buddy!
I am going to stick to my resolve and not call him all day. Then I will stop for a quick glass of wine on the way from work and hit the grocery store to get some lunch stuff before I go home.
I have to tell you that being sick last year was easier than this is.
I really miss my old life and my friend.
Most of us are about as happy as we make up our minds to be.
