I have read your entire sitch. OMG. I don't even know what to say other than you give me a lot of encouragement. The ups and downs suck. When I first started posting, I really didn't think this is what is was but the more I read other stories, I know this is where I am. I could be writing alot of what you others have written. I am happy that I am able to now to know it isn't all that I have been horrible, which is what I believed at first. I know my part in it, but I see more and more everyday. I too have actually seen the "alien" come and go right before my very eyes. I am learning from you and others that it is what it is. Thank you for all of your sharing.
If you focus on the past, you ruin the future. You can only live for today.
