Thank you so much for your support. Its an odd week, a bad movie, ups and downs, you get the drill. We have one more atty appointment in the morning before court on Thursday. I am really going to miss being married, part of a partnership, that close close bond with someone. I haven't had that with H in a long time, but I still do miss it horribly.
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Did you get attacked by the goats
Grants Farm goats are C R A Z Y aggressive. I like the zoo goats, because you don't feed them bottles, you just brush them. Much more mellow. My girls won't even go IN the fenced part. They feed 'em from the other side of the fence.
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Now that AB has sold, I wonder if they are going to change how it is run.
So funny you said that, I got a picture of the girls by the AB sign, just in case.... But I hope they don't change a thing either!
My C was just telling me that after the D I'll find myself even happier and really find myself and all kinds of crap like that. We'll see if that's true, I guess. I am thinking and praying for you, LWB!!! Heck, don't know what to say, just that I guess... And you have a lot of friends here you know!!! ((((LWB)))) Karen
God, I truly hope that we are happier after all of this crap is over. I just want to believe that there is a purpose to all of this pain. I guess, though, it is up to us to determine what we do with it. Still, it is pretty scary go out there as a singleton after being with someone we thought was our soul mate. I know ther are so many other great people out there. I just decided that I am not going to look for any of them yet. When I am the strongest me I can possibly be, then I will look to have some one COMPLIMENT who I am not COMPLETE who I am. LWB, you are taking this in such stride. I am so impressed by your courage and inner beauty. I keep saying this....we have so got to meet!
Broken Hearted ------------------ Me - 36 H - 37 S - 8 Married - 1992 ILYNILWY - August 2007 Moved Out - March 2008 OW Revieled - May 28, 2008 Filed for D - July 2, 2008
I have come to believe that for us life after D will bring happiness... eventually. Not immediately.
It will not happen overnight, as some will try to tell us in a foolish approach to offering comfort. But it is the ending of the Limbo, with all its drama and uncertainties, that will help us to move forward and resolve the path of our lives. The same holds true for Reconciliation -- either event, Divorce or Reconciliation, will break the stalemate, this twisting in the wind while trying to gain traction in our lives.
Lwb, you are a wonderful woman and a loving mother, with a great head on your shoulders, intelligent and witty, strong in your convictions and in your morals, with a heart that just glows. I have absolute faith that even where your H has become too blind to see the rare gem he is losing, someone else will come along who will definitely recognize the true beauty you possess. While the banks and markets that trade in the treasures of the Earth are failing all around us, you can bank on that.
I am sending good thoughts and prayers to you this week sweetie!!! You will make it through this. I think Thursday will be rough, but things will get better. I've seen it plenty of times.
Maybe you can arrange for a little party on Thursday? Here's some divorce cakes for you. Maybe send one to the X2b!!!
Hey Sweetie, I just wanted to stop by and say my thoughts are with you. I know some people that got divorced and after time the anger went away and they actually ended back up together. I am not thinking along those lines for me but anything is now possible. Hugs.
kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory
brokenhearted, yes, I totally believe that now. I don't want someone to complete my life, or even take care of me. I (eventually) want someone to share my life, to enjoy being together, with me.
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Lwb, you are a wonderful woman and a loving mother, with a great head on your shoulders, intelligent and witty, strong in your convictions and in your morals, with a heart that just glows.
Wow. Nocode, that is the nicest thing anyone has said to me in a long long time. Thank you so much.
Today H and I met at the atty (H was late, probably cost us $100). We signed all the paperwork, got the documents in order. All we have to do is show up on Thursday. The bad news is we will be seen anytime between 10am-1pm, have to be there that entire time, but don't know when we'll be called. UGH Sitting in a room with H and other miserable couples. lol Not my idea of a good time. But it'll be said and done after that. Wow. Just wow. Out of body experience almost.
I am making plans for the house (some furniture purchases, and lots of painting). I have been organizing the unfinished part of the basement, packing H's stuff. I don't expect him to take it right away, but will move out to a corner. I can't wait to be organized.
H asked me to make a list of our (my?) house bills, and has spent the day on the phone getting the bills lowered (Internet, cable, phone, etc). Guilt in action.
LWB, I was going to suggest taking a book to occupy the time but if it was me I'd probably not be able to read or comprehend a single word. But maybe some soothing music on my iPod would help...
I have been lurking on your thread and really haven't had anything of help to offer exept that I am always thinking of you and my heart is with you this week.
Yes I think your H is going to have lots of guilt and he thinks this will end up freeing him of his MLC pain, it won't im'e sure. Ultimately when he does come around it will probobly be to late.
Stupid Boy. (I love that song)
((((((((LWB)))))))))
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
They feed 'em from the other side of the fence.