Hi T! I missed you! Did I tell you how good the book has been for me?
Do you think I'm being slightly ridiculous about the wakeboarding thing? It frustrates me sooooo much. Maybe I am oversensitive about this. I feel like if he wants to see me he should be making an effort and trying to do something nice with me. And popping in after wakeboarding isnt all that much fun! And he's not risking anything - if I'm not there he doesnt pop in. He doesnt have to invest anything. I am disappointed that when he gave me the speech where he said he loved me, and he wanted to date me, that that hasnt actually turned into any dates. (Except initiated by me). I might have got the idea that if a guy is into a girl he will do anything to see her.... and popping in after wakeboarding doesnt feel so much like that. Do you think my expectation is too high?
I just realised what the deeper issue is. I love to have things to look forward to. I love to have a plan. I wish H would make a plan to see me, not so much of this spontaneous crap!
I wish that he might be going wakeboarding so that he could run into me, but he's not. He used to go wakeboarding even when he definitely did NOT want to see me (i.e. drive away quickly when he could see me over the fence!). And he doesnt change his wakeboarding time if he knows what time I will be there or not. He just loves the wakeboarding, which is OK. I can be more enjoyable than wakeboarding after all!
