Because you are not in control she is. It is always harder and longer on the one who is waiting. I know ...I have been there and still there. I know how you feel about the waiting, and waiting, and waiting and waiting etc. It makes the days long and the nights even longer. You have to find something that can fill in the time. It was hard for me, because my sitch was on my mind 24-7 for months. The body can't take that much stress for very long. It helped me to visit with the people here. Most of them are waiting as well. They talk about GAL if you can do that it will help pass the time. You are being proactive by giving it time and GAL.
For me it started out like the worst twisted ankle you can a imagine, as I my ankle stared to heal the pain got less and less, but I always remember that my ankle is weak. So you know it is hurt, but not as much as before.
Right now time is all you have on your side. The longer it is the more you will have to GAL and grow. Look at it this way. Where will your R/M be if you don't do anything? If you give it time it could change for the better. You are better off than if you didn't do anything.
I may not be making much since, but if you have a positive attitude and keep reading DR you will make some good steps forward. If nothing else you will be better for it.
