Sunday wasn't a good day for me, the negative voice in my head which still thinks W is a lying, cheating b**ch, seemed to be getting the upper hand over the voice of reason which tells me to move forward and don't look back. The arguments used were, you've not ML for how long and it doesn't happen when you want it, or listen to the way she talks to you, she talks to you like you're a schoolboy or a POS. So when W wanted to discuss neutral paint colors, biscuit, eggshell, light gold, pale gold, ambiance, I just couldn't get interested (they all look like magnolia to me ). W accused me of not being interested cos I didn't jump immediately to look for paint thinners from the garage, and I reacted when she told me to get some from FIL as she had phoned him to get some from his garage. Anyway I retrieved the situation by going through all of the sample paints with W, and acting interested, I'm not sure which one we chose cos they all look the same to me.
Sunday night we watched a period drama we recorded from last week, as always I'm in the mood afterwards but W is just ready to sleep, so we fall asleep. Early Monday morning, as we wake W is still half asleep but asks me if we have time for a "quickie". Normally it's a yes from me, but I won't go into detail but the quickie doesn't happen cos I can't find something. But at least the negative voice is silenced for a while.
This Monday evening I come home feeling under the weather so me and D7 are in bed by 8pm. W gets home at 8.30pm but I can tell she peed with me cos she has been to the shops and has her hands full and has to knock on the door, I take a while to answer cos I'm in bed. I don't even get a hello, her first response is "you've left some windows open". Anyway I go back to bed, but I can hear W banging around downstairs clearly not in a good mood. I'm too tired to get into a discussion so I fall asleep. I'm woken by a W who says I'm snoring, I'm a bit feverish and can't get back to sleep so I now here downstairs typing away and drinking a lemsip (with a drop of brandy).
Last week on holiday was good, but real life, piecing is very hard.
