Thank you. What each of you said means so much to me. I missed u too, J! I was doing so much better when I was posting here more often, both receiving & giving support from people who aren't freaked out by the pain, cause we all know it
Wifey, I read your thread and how you feel resonated with me. I feel broken, too. Nothing in my life prepared me to build up walls to protect myself from this kind of loss. And i still havent managed to build any real ones. If you met me in person you would think I had everything together, but inside I am a total wreck. And I still suck at DBing after all these months. I can't seem to let go of the raw, animal pain. It hurts as bad as it ever did. Even though at times i have felt detached from my husband and that I would be ok, the loss & pain were still there. The experiences with OMs were some of the only times I could feel some temporary relief, so I guess that makes me understand my h a little better. Sigh.
It is in the shelter of each other that people live.--Irish proverb
