Hmmmm I wonder if I get confused with being independently strong and being like DQ says - a fear of intimacy.
I thought I was independently strong, I am definitely capable and up until this year H had never seen me cry. And when i did cry he turned his back.
With a tiny little bit of trepidation I would like to ask you a question !
Yesterday H rang me to talk about purchasing a gift for a friend who has been helping us out with construction issues. He was suggesting that he buy them a weekend escape to a hotel in the city with dinner etc. He wanted my opinion. I said fabulous idea , I know i would love that. His response
" You will have to find a real man to take you away like that "
Soooo is this pain i am hearing. Is he now considering himself a failure as a man because I had an affair. Can you relate to these feelings SPM? Hope I am not analyzing or asking to much of you !
