My W Convinced, D Is The Answer!

[Little Engine]

I think I am done. Her actions and just something in me says to let her go and start forward on my new life. W has completely flipped out for OM and as brightly as this is burning for her, I have to think that reality will make it flash out quickly. Even if there were no OM, I don't know if I would want a M with her anymore.

A friend called me last night to see how I was doing. His W is friends with mine. She dropped in to see my W at work and W was wearing a ring that OM had given her. W took a phone call from her sister a coule of minutes later and was totally playing ring off as no big deal to family. Gets off the phone and tells our friend a different story. Friends W was just aghast at what my W is doing and how she is pulling our kids into this new fantasy. Again, I think I am done. What would you do?

When my friend told me this, the only reaction I had was to laugh. My W is so lost and unhappy that she would resort to this? Just absolutely tragic!

I talked to kids last night as I made last post. S sounded tired and sad, D was a little more upbeat, but W put her on speakerphone, and that irks me. W got on to ask about parent teacher conference and they had asked if we wanted separate or together. W told them "together." I said just make a time that is convenient for you, I don't know if I'll even make it. I'll e-mail the teacher and get the skinny from her. D has a field trip Wednesday and I just asked W, "You said you were going to go, so is that still the plan?" W said "Yes," and I responded "OK then, I'm not going to take the day off if you have it handled. Would you put S back on so I can tell him goodnight?" W seemed sort of shocked that I didn't want to talk to her. I really have nothing to say.

Weighing now if I should try for shared custody and move back to town, buy a house and settle there for the sake of my kids? I'd like sole custody, but the judge probably won't agree to that with my on-call schedule. I feel like the kids really need the stability that I could provide if I were there. W wouldn't have my CS$ to support her new life with OM. I'm sure they are planning him to move in and help her with mortgage. I wouldn't be surprised if D is final and she marries OM on NYE! What a psycho she has become!

Thanks everyone for your prayers and support. I came to the library to clear my head and have Internet on the laptop. Rainy, cold, windy day here, but really not as depressed as I figured I would be.