Nothing To Fear!! God is in Control.

[kissak]

Hello everyone! I am having a wonderful day....I had an awakening over the weekend. I dont know what caused it or anything, but it has been good.

I will start with my H. He went off Friday to meet a woman he was talking to online. She lived 2 1/2 hours away. He stayed the night there. With her or in a motel room, I have no idea. But I just saw him in a different light. Dont know why.

He texted me Saturday to let me know he was back. Like I needed to know that! I didnt answer him. Then he texted a couple hours later that day to just say hello. I didnt answer. He then texted a few more times "u not talking". I didnt answer him. He then started calling. I didnt answer. I let my voicemail get it. I had NO desire to talk to him.

Then I went to church yesterday. The Pastor gave a good sermon about the good things God will do for you. Not to worry. Just to have faith. And alot more. Why be afraid when God is in control? There is nothing to fear.

So, when I got out of church, my H had called and left me another voicemail. This time I let the kids call him back. Then he asked to speak to me. Wanted to know how come I didnt answer him Saturday. I told him I was busy. I was! Me and the kids had a great day!! I was short and to the point, but kind to him. I hung up...well he probably texted me several more times yesterday. Wanted to know if I had stopped talking to him. THen he even texted me to tell me he had a small fire in his camper...something Im sure just to get me talking. I let the kids call him to see if things were ok. They were. Then they hung up and he texted "you didnt want to talk to me?"

He texted late last night too. Said since He hadnt heard much from me, he was going to say good night! I just texted back "good night!!"

Today he has called me twice at work.

I see I have pulled away big time, and now look what he is doing. But Im not concerned. I dont even have my phone on ring today.

I feel different. I think its been because I have been scared of what will happen...but it doesnt matter, because God is in control. I guess I have just finally gotten it!

Im having a great day! I hope everyone else is too!!!!